So, I usually ignore my WordPress back office when it recommends blog prompts, but today – I’ll be honest, the prompt just hit differently. Please excuse my borderline Gen Z lingo (it’s catchy, though).
Challenges used to be daunting to me; I almost feared failure before I even attempted to complete the task. I looked at things I’ve always wanted to do but didn’t because I was too scared. Before 2019, it never crossed my mind to move to another state until it did, and I was faced with opportunities to take it… and I’m so glad I did. I had external influences that suppressed my desire to succeed; no matter what I did or how hard I tried, I would face a setback. So, when I had a kismet opportunity to express my independence, I took it. After all, I felt like I had nothing else to lose. Now, I want to comment on something. While I say I had external influences that suppressed my success, that was my perspective – my interpretation of the situations I had created in my head. However, the decision to ascend to a whole new stage of life gave me the push in the right direction regarding my healing journey.
(*TW: implied suicide)
I’m a firm believer in events happening for reasons based beyond our comprehension (divine intervention, if you will). I truly believe that if I hadn’t made the decision to reclaim my independence from my depression, then I would be sitting in a completely different position right now – probably, not even alive.
Now, I look back on the last four years – the person I was in 2019 – and realize I even faced challenges during these last years. COVID happened at the end of 2019, made a big fuss by March 2020, lost my job, and was essentially evicted. I moved back to Oklahoma, which put me right back in a situation that put me in a depression in the first place. So, again, I was faced with choices. Did I want to slip back into the darkness, possibly never resurface again? Or do I put my all into everything and make the necessary changes? Again, another case of divine intervention. Lo and behold, I fell in love – and it wasn’t the kind we all fooled ourselves into believing. This connection felt different from any other relationship, which led to us moving fairly quickly (it was a pandemic, so why not?). We got married in 2021; honestly, it was a 10/10 experience in Las Vegas. Anyway, this gave me the stability to feel like I could pursue my dreams – and my husband supported every step. Not to mention, I received therapy throughout the whole first two years anyway.
In August 2021, I got my own LLC. In January 2022, I pursued my Master’s degree in Psychology. By March 2022, I decided I definitely wanted to pursue a doctorate when I was done. I modeled my business after the LLC’s anniversary and structured what I wanted to do to make this a more concrete distinction for what I’m pursuing. So ultimately, I use challenges to improve my situation and gain more wisdom to achieve more goals. I’m grateful for every challenge I’ve faced, as each one granted me more wisdom than the last. I’m equally grateful to learn and instill those lessons into my future.
I hope this was enlightening or inspirational in some way because my story means a lot to me – and I know it can resonate with some.